I swear..

As i type this post out, i have this really really huge smile on my face. I really had a good time tonight even though one of my cousins was being a big party pooper. I met up with my friend from school at Don Quintin. Then to make things even better, this girl that's really really beautiful said she'd go with me even though she was scared to go over into Juarez. So this night was perfect and i wouldn't have changed anything. My friend Alicia... which is the little girl on the left in the picture was so much fun to hang out with. I had invited her and her boyfriend to hang out with me tomorrow in El Paso but i think the boyfriend is going to Chihuahua so i have to postponed that plan till next week. But it just made me super happy for some reason knowing that my badass friend had such a cool boy friend like that. I remember i used to have this crush on her but when i met her boyfriend i never wanted to mess with that again. They're just so cool together that it makes you step back and see what a couple can be like. You want your relationship with whoever you're with to be at least a little bit like theirs.

So anyways. I was dancing all crazy the whole night with whoever. Sometimes alone, sometimes with my friends, sometimes with girls i didn't even know, haha!
But i had a blast as always and i can't stop smiling. not even while i'm closing up this paragraph. I'm pretty sure i'm going to fall asleep with my big grin.


We got this table reserved right next to the band playing. It was cool because this girl.. i dunno what relations she has to the band, but she sat right next to us. And it was just fun dancing in her little circle. And then also, the table we had gotten had some girls sitting there already. I guess they thought no one was going to buy that table so they just sat down there. I felt bad when we kicked them off and i just wanted them to sit there with us. I even remembered that girl from another time me and my cousin went to Don Quintin. I had bought her and her friends some drniks and it was just a fun night making friends. I don't think she recognized me though. She would just look at me while i danced all crazy next to her.
But yeah im about to pass out now. Hopefully school doesn't suck tomorrow.
And also i hope this one girl i met will hopefully go out with us tomorrow or sunday to the movies.

Only time will tell.

Hope all you guys had fun tonight or tomorrow or whenever!

So today I just had really good luck to find out that I was being cheated on. I didn't find out through the grape vine or one of my friends seeing my gf at some club with another guy. I had no idea what was going to happen today. When I woke up all I wanted was to see my baby and that's it. I was in class and text'd her asking if she wanted to go have lunch/dinner when she got out of work. Then I totally forgot she didn't have a car. So being the nice guy I am I went and picked her up from work. WEEEEEE for remembering that she doesn't get out at 3:30 anymore. So there I am waiting for like 2 hours outside. So I'm really really happy to see her but for some reason she's acting really weird with me. She's been like this for the past week and it's been getting me upset and really weirded out.

So we go eat at one of those cool Mexican places I always rave on about and we sat down. Wait...wait...wait... I forgot. We went to her house first cause her mom had made some food and we were just gonna eat that instead. But she saw how I was all bummed out and stuff so I guess she decided to go eat instead. How I wish she would have just let us eat there now. So on the walk to my truck I noticed she was really really weird. Like acting kind of bothered. And I've been with my gf for a long long time, of course I'm going to know something is up. I ask her and she just tells me not to worry about it and that she'll tell me after we eat. So I'm like wtf. Just let it out, you're already sending signals showing how bothered you are. Why do I wanna be with you if you're going to act like this.


So anyways.... to make a long story short. She told me she had been with another guy the past week and that she didn't really love me as much as I loved her. She was only with me because she cared for me a lot. Doesn't that sound like total BS?
If I really cared for someone I would never hurt them. EVEN if I didn't want to hang out/be with them anymore. She started off her argument on why we shouldn't be together anymore because of the fact that I push her to get her papers fixed so she could come to the USA. I told her that never really bothered me and she knew that too. I just wanted her to get off her lazy ass and do something about her papers. She likes to shop over here and like yesterday, her mom had problems with her car and she could have helped if she was able to go over. I told her I never complained about her not getting papers. So I debunked that excuse about her wanting to break up with me. I think she was trying to come up with excuses so that in her head she could tell herself that it wasn't going to work out anyways because she fucked up and she tried to hide that fact with making me the one to be at fault.
She even told me I'm not spontaneous enough. WHAT THE HELL. Everyone I know says I'm weird and crazy for doing stuff out of the blue. I remember going to her house right after class and i'd wait for her to arrive from work. I'd see her car drive into her street and as soon as i saw her face, she'd have this huge smile. She wasn't expecting me to be there at her house before she got home. I would think stuff like that would count as being spontaneous (although i admit that's not as random as I used to be with her in El Paso). If my gf wasn't so boring I think we would have been doing crazy things over in Mexico. I don't really know that place as well as I do my city so how the hell am I supposed to do as many crazy things as I would in my hometown. When she used to live here in El Paso is was alot easier to do random things because she was here and we could do whatever we wanted to do. I remember once, we snuck into some high school pretending we were students. The people would ask us for passes and we'd be like, "RUN!" She's never done anything like that since she's been living in Mexico.
So there she is telling me all this stuff and I know she wants to break up with me, but then she just drops the bomb and tells me yeah I was with another guy. Immediately in my head I can just see her all slutty trying to get free drinks just the way some of her friends tend to do (from what she's told me anyways, that's how they get to go out to clubs and bars without paying). But what really pissed me off and annoyed me was the fact that her morals and standards just went out the window.

Since we started dating, she's always told me how she wanted her relationships to be all sacred and stuff. Like if I was going out with this girl then that's who I would dedicate my time and life too, no one else. That moral or ideal or whatever it was to her is no longer there. She just wanted to think in her head that she was one of those nice girls I guess. I think her selfishness had taken over and she just wanted to make herself happy. How the hell do you have the right to complain about anything if you haven't even put any effort into fixing that stuff. Of course she's gonna say, but I've been trying to fix my jealousy and also that other thing. But you're not complaining about those things. I just sort of feel bad for her now. Since high school she wasn't even able to graduate with our class. I can't see her getting a super nice career and sticking to it. Yes I'm pissed right now so I'm going to say mean things sorry. I picture this girl either staying at home with her mom the way it is now, getting some rich guy to pay for everything so she doesn't really have to get a career, or just moving in with a friend in another city struggling and finally seeing how hard it is to be on your own and not having the boyfriend or mom do everything for you. I guess I'm the real idiot for seeing how she was really going no where in life and sticking by her side no matter what. But then again love is that powerful i guess. Too me, my perfect life would have been living with the one i truely deeply love and that's it. Having enough to have a roof over your head and some food on the table would have been enough to keep me happy as long as i had that one girl by my side at all times and that i could count on no matter what. I actually wanted to be the guy to take care of her whether if we were poor or well off. I would have been happy because she was going to be the one I was going to spend the rest of my life with.

I guess when you see how good people can be you have these expectations that they'll be like that with you all the time. I've been proven wrong before and this is another experience to add to that list.

It's funny how so much love for a person can turn into this big ball of hate within a second.

I just hope I don't see her tomorrow at the club we're going to since we already got a table at Don Quintin.

good riddance

So this is my girlfriend on Sunday taking off her expired vehicle sticker. I noticed the stickers they're making us put on our windshields are all weird now though. But yeah she had a really hard time taking that thing off with her butter knife. I guess that's why i decided to take a picture of her. 

Damnit!

I freakin forgot my backpack at my girlfriends house.

i wonder if i can make it to mexico then come back in time for school tomorrow
=/

Yesterday!

So yeah... I think it was yesterday. No wait! I didn't really do anything on Sunday.

On Saturday I took my little cousin and my friend Rene out to the movies in Juarez. We met up with my girlfriend, who I was dying to see, and her mom and sister. They were eating at this place called "Alitas" which means wings in Spanish. I think that's what the place was called anyways. So I'm broke but I took my friend and cousin out and we met them at the restaurant. So I pulled out my last savings and ordered them an appetizer. I didn't just want them to be sitting there drinking free water while everyone else had food. It was just kind of crappy though because I wanted to sit with my girlfriend on the other side of the table, but I couldn't just leave my SUPER SHY cousin alone by herself at the other. So I basically kept getting up, walked to the other side, cuddled with my girlfriend, stole some food from her, and then just returned to the other side to mingle with my cousin and try and keep her un bored. I think my girlfriend got mad at me though, only because I wasn't 100% with her. But maybe it's just that time of the month and she's going to get pissed at me no matter what. While everyone was eating though, I snuck out of the table and went to check out what times the movies were playing at. The place we were eating at was inside the mall so it was like a 2 min walk to the movie area. Deuce Bigalo PART 2 (I have no idea what the official name is) was playing at 10:30 so I just picked that one.
When everyone was done eating we just headed over to the movies and bough our tickets and stuff and went into the theater. It just stunk because the movie was messing up and no one was fixing it. There were huge scenes cut out of the movie that we didn't get to see. It was an ok movie to spend time with your family and friends and since my changa and her family are big dorks, they enjoyed it big time! Her mom didn't even notice that some scenes were missing, that's how big of a dork she is.

But it was fun and yeah, the VIP is an awesome place to watch movies except when they mess up the way they did that one night. =/

Mexican Independence!

Woohoo, so I went out with my gf this past weekend. On Thursday it was Mexico's independence day sort of. It's actually on the 16th but you know us Mexicans finding ways to celebrate early!
So on Thursday at 12am everyone does what is called, "El Grito" or if you want to be more historically correct, it's called the "Grito de Dolores". So basically a long time ago, this guy named Hidalgo rang a bell in the town of Dolores and gathered the townspeople to rebel against Spain's control over them.


So anyways! back to the fun parts of my weekend. On Thursday me and my girlfriend went to go eat at Chilis before we went out partying for the night. They had this awesome drink, although kind of on the fruity side, that we just kept ordering. Thank god we did though, because later on we found out the liquor at the place we were at was having no effect on us.

So after we ate and stuff I took my GF back to her place so she could fix her hair and other things so she could look pretty for me all night. We went to this new place called Bora Bar that had just opened up about a month ago. We had heard about this place before but never got the chance to drop by and see what it was like. Actually we did try once but for some reason it wasn't open.
So yeah...supposably they have this nice bongo show where the stage is just dedicated to people playing bongos for a certain amount of time. People go crazy on the dance floor and what not. But since it was Mexican Independence day... The whole dance floor was taken up by reservation tables. We ended up just walking around trying to find a decent open space to dance and drink in. It was just a blast being there with my changa. Usually one of us brings a friend along and it's just not the same. When it's just me and her, she can act dorky with me without having her mind set on pleasing her friend or what her friend is thinking about. Same thing with me.

So once the night began approaching 12a.m., The club/bar put up a countdown on their semi big screen on stage. Everyone was counting down while we tried to go and get a shot of tequila to drink for the Grito. The bartender guy took forever though and we missed it by like 10 seconds. =/
But I managed to take a snapshot of the mascot on stage waving the flag like crazy. We took our shot of Don Julio, I think that's what it was, and kissed each other while everyone else was still screaming "VIVA MEXICO!" I quickly grabbed her hand and pulled her towards the middle were I had taken the picture and tried to show her the mascot with the big flag. After the whole crazy yelling though the DJ went back on and put on some cool bongo type song and I just started dancing with my gf. It's funny because during that one song, her smile stood out big time. It would just make me super happy when I'd look up at her face smiling the way she was and danced even crazier and dorkier. It stood out way more then her other smiles that night I guess. I would have never gotten that smile if someone else was with us though =/


So after taking like 6 shots of tequila and some really gross drinks (I swear their bartenders don't know how to make anything!) they put on some mariachis for our entertainment! For about an hour and a half the mariachis were playing old school back in the old day songs that the whole freakin club knew. One thing about Mexicans is that they know every freakin popular song ever sung by anyone famous. No matter how ghetto or cheesey they are, they either know how to dance to it or sing the most important parts. ESPECIALLY WHEN DRUNK. So yeah I've warned you. We danced to a couple of those, even though I don't know how, and ended the night that way. My girlfriend kind of had to work tomorrow so yeah 2am was sort of late for her. We left Bora Bar at around 2:14am I think and I ended up getting to my place like at 4.
Whenever we go out, just me and my girlfriend, I always end up giving her some sort of back scratchies or massage before she goes to bed. I put on her jammies and tuck her in and all that stuff. Just in case you're wondering where the heck those 2 hours went, well now you know.

All n all it was fun and just for the record.... I love hanging out with my gf.

= )

Sneaking Out!

So yeah I'm not really supposed to go out and have fun while I'm being punished but I kind of did. I went out with my friends and stuff and had lots of fun!

This one friend of mine, I ALWAYS get her drunk it's funny. Her name is Sandra and she's really pretty. When I met her, she had this one boyfriend I never even met. But yeah, I managed to take a picture with her pretending to be drunk holding something to drink. As you can tell.... all the dancing I've done for the night has lead my hair to be all poofy. BUT WHO CARES! I had tons of fun and I didn't care what I looked like having it. The bartender was being extra cool with me tonight and gave me some free shots in the beginning. At the end though, he told me I ordered some drinks and never paid him! What the heck?!?!?! I argued with him how he's badass and I would never do that to him and so and so fourth. He was like DOOD don't worry, I was just letting you know. But I kept arguing because I always pay my friends back double for the things they do for me. IF he gave me free drinks, then I give him a huge tip next time I do end up paying.


The only bad part of the night was one of my friends coming onto me. Now I don't hate gay people or anything, but I don't swing that way. When one of my friends is coming onto me when he knows well that I love my girlfriend and one day plan to marry her, it just makes me feel weird.
I guess it feels weird because its a friend of yours who knows who you are and what you like and who you're already dating.

But yeah... that kinda left a bad taste in my mouth and made me forget about all the cool things that happened before that. I made a couple new friends that were waitresses at the bar I was at and they were fun to joke around with and dance.

I know I'll probably get chewed out tomorrow for going out tonight, but I had fun and have no regrets.

I wish I could have gone to see my girlfriend instead but she did something dumb again and I got put off by that.

Hope you guys have/had an awesome weekend and got home safely!

Adios and stuff señoritas y señors

PS i only took freakin 2 pictures! the whole night... And the one i posted above is the only one i came out in, so yeah.

Yup....

I'm still alive and kickin!

Boo.....!

Que pasa and stuff!
So luck was not on my side this weekend. I got in trouble with the parent and got myself grounded, haha, imagine that a 22 year old grounded. Anyways, she supplies me with everything I need while I go to school so I can't really argue. I'm a grateful man to have a roof and food as long as I stay here and abide by her rules. So what did I do to get in trouble?

Well my mom went to Las Vegas for the weekend so it left me and my grandma staying home doing your normal day to day stuff. Except on Saturday I decided to go stay over at a really really special friends house. My grandma wasn't home at all so there was no way to advise her to were I was going to be. I figured since she was doing a retreat all weekend she wouldn't even notice or really bother to find out. Man was I wrong. What happened was that she noticed I didn't come home at night and freaked out. By the time my mom got home from Vegas she already knew everything. So since my friend lives super far away, I didn't have signal like all night or the next day. So what happened when I was returning home and finally got a decent signal going? A shit load of voice mails and text messages and what not. GET YOUR ASS HOME NOW! was their attitude. But you know what? I had such a great time that I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. And only that one very special person could ever do that to me. So I'm not allowed on the computer, watch TV, or play my video games. I can't go out either so I have to stay home, but that's fine with me.

I thought it was funny though how my changa asked if she could go out without me on Thursday. Usually she just does whatever she wants, but it felt nice to know that she cared what I thought. So here I am writing this post after showing one of my professors how to start a blog for his class. He had been complaining that the Campus was taking wayyyyy to long to set him up with a website and I stayed after class to talk to him about blogging his stuff. He sounded scared at first saying how he doesn't know how to do web pages. But if people like Miss Q can set one up easy! then I have no doubt that so can he.

Welp folks. Hope you guys are safe and having fun! I'll try and take a peek over here whenever I get the chance to turn on the computer. Here's a shot of me and my friend, who's too cool to let go of the phone for a photo, from last week. I don't know her name. I just know she takes care of one of my really good friends since he's always wasted.